So I moved again, and I should have done it 4 years ago, but had no courage - failed a test of faith. But I passed the test now, learning from my previous failure. Hashem has "told" me in so many different ways I had to leave and move on, and I finally did. Late, but better late than never. I am now more at peace. I felt in exile in my previous neighborhood. I originally moved there just as a transfer stage before I would move to my current neighborhood, but got stuck there for financial fears. Failed a test of faith. But I am much better now and stronger in my faith.
I now live in a near-by neighborhood, the closest one to the campus. I had always wanted to live in this neighborhood, since I was a young student. I knew that once I finish traveling in the world and living in different places, this would be my final home neighborhood. So I'm finally here. The apartment is not my dream home, but it is bigger, so I'll be able to host people, when they need a place to stay. The part of the neighborhood is not exactly the part that I wanted, but had I moved when time was right, instead of procrastinating, I would have been where I truly wanted to be. Still, God is great, and by focusing on what I want and telling Him that, I believe He would present the opportunity to me again some time. In the meantime, at least I'm in my neighborhood, the closest I could get to Mt. Scopus. I'm so happy with the neighborhood - it is my home. I've always wanted to live here. The atmosphere here is calm and special, a lot of different kinds of people from all corners of the world. Very special.
The scary part is: I had written here previously about a dream I had had as a young student, about our enemies attacking us and wanting to kill us and I'm hiding behind a trash bin. The scary part is that in the dream, it was in this neighborhood, in this part of the neighborhood, on this street, just in a different part of the street some 50 or so meters away from here. Does it mean anything?
On a totally different note:
There's more to tell. Hashem has opened a wonderful, incredible new door for me for a professional path that I could only dream of before, and now it is truly a reality, with all its magnificence. I had tried in the past to make it happen, but all my attempts failed. Now, without me trying anything, it just practically landed in my lap (and had nothing to do with my previous attempts) - it was all God's doing, it happened in such a surprising way, suddenly, and the unfolding of it has been incredible too. Perhaps I'll write about it later. Stay tuned.